Positive news

My bf had two jobs yesterday and one on Monday!! Things are starting to look up! I really missed talking to him yesterday, but like they say absence make the heart grow fonder. I was so happy to hear from him when he got home last night i wanted to kiss him. Too bad he lives 70 some miles away :(
He has one more job this week, and then i get to see him on Saturday! 3 day weekends are wonderful!

Keeping my mouth shut

So this weekend started off kinda good. I picked up my boyfriend from the house and we ran a few errands Saturday afternoon. a couple hours later the stupid 18 yr old kid that lives with him asked if my bf could take him to work in case his dad doesn't get back in time (his dad was at a flea market in Baltimore helping his "fiance" sell some crap she made.) This is the weekend!! He's not supposed to have to do that shit on the weekend much less in a fucking hurricane!  Twice now we've had to either take Ric to work or pick him up from work on a weekend. After we got back to the house Jose and Jane and her brood of sticky, dirty faced kids were right behind us. So much for a quiet relaxing afternoon. She gets to put on cartoons for the kids and go down to her cave and take a nap while we have to deal with the kids arguing or whatever. After the "mother" woke up from her nap and started making dinner things seemed better. The stupid annoying 18 yr old kid wasn't ther to knock on my bf's door every 5 minutes to show him something cool on youtube or whatever and Jane was in a good mood. We had some sweet tea vocka mixed with sweet tea and had a nice dinner. shortly after dinner we were stil hungry and Jane was making Macaroni and cheese. Basically Saturday night was good. Good food good moods, good booze and good sex too. Jane asked us to come down to her cave with her and watch tv (i kind of regret sayin no now, explanation to come) we turned her down because the basement is where the cat's litter box is and well It always stinks down there. I've only been down there once to microwave something (its the only working microwave in the house) and it didn't seem all that bad, but i think she had just cleaned the night before. Bf and I fell asleep around 11pm, but were woken up during the night between the dogs whining and scratching the floor or the wind blowing. Woke up pretty damn early Sunday and was not in the greatest mood, and neither apparently was Jane. All i hear coming from the kitchen is her screaming at her kids to be quiet. You see apparently Jane suffers from Fibro Mialgia (sp?) one of her many excuses to not do anything and was having a flare up that morning. I was hungry and was looking forward to some sausage gravy over nice hot buttery biscuits or pancakes with sausage or something wonderful of that nature. When the bf asked me to bring him the cereal from the room i got a little worried.....Apparently the cat had shit on the counter (far away form the stove) which made the bf disgusted and not wanting to cook. I got pissed off b/c i was not getting my wonderful breakfast like i was expecting and was like forget it just give me coffee. He proceeded to bring me coffee and asked me if i wanted toast, He walks into the room with DRY FUCKING TOAST!!! WTF?! No butter for the toast b/c the dogs ate half the tub of butter and now he doesn't want to use it. So i proceeded to get even more pissed off and was like "i'm going to McDonalds, Screw this shit!" Me and bf go to mcdonalds, come back and take our showers. I feel better after having eaten and being clean. We finish watching Halloween II (which was really hard to get through with all the stabbing, Thank you Rob Zombie) and by now i'm hungry again and want lunch. I'm thinking grilled cheese sandwhiches. Bf is afraid the kitchen is still shitty so i go scope it out. No cat shit on the counter and i go ahead and wipe down the stove and the counters so that he wouldn't have any excuses to not cook me anything. He comes in and prceeds to make panera mac and cheese and cut up the watermelon.......This is not what i wanted!, this isn't lunch! I take a bite of the mac and cheese anyway (i'm not about to gripe) and spit it back out because its cold! and he doesn't want me to go down stairs and microwave it because it smells down there or something. To top it off he has this look on his face and gives off this vibe of "wtf! why did you just spit that out" I said its still cold. He said fine i'll eat that one and continues making the second packet of mac and cheese. I was pissed off again at this point. Why the fuck do you have to eat cold mac and cheese?!?!?! why can't i go downstairs and microwave it for you or for myself? He of course doesn't get why i'm angry, he's thinking "what the hell is this girl's problem? I'm gonna eat the plate that's cold mac and cheese!" He doesn't get it, I didn't want this to start with and now you have to eat cold mac and cheese even though i cleaned the kitchen so you could have something better! Anyway, as he's fixing the other plate of mac and cheese i walk down the hall and pass by the wipe off board where all the chores are.....I'm so fucking done with this place by now.....i decide to write under the bf's chores "finda job, and move out!" Of course i didn't tell him and he didn't find it until after i left. Apparently he thought the 18yr old kid did it at first, and he almost took the kid's head off.....Oops! Then apparently Jane and Jose found out about it and figured that i don't like coming there and that i don't like bf being there. This is all true, but to keep sanity and being able to see my boyfriend I had to apologize and have to make it seem like when i'm there i'm happy to be there. FML!! Next time i need to not let my emotions get the best of me and keep my mouth shut!

P.S. My boyfriend doesn't have a job right now as mentioned in a previous post, so everytime we can't cook in the kitchen and have to eat out it, I have to pay.

Making him think things through

So i was on the phone with my sister and she asked how my boyfriend was doing and i remembered somethings he told me this weekend....He was talking about how things are running better at the house now that everyone has a list of chores and helps keep the house clean. He started to talk about how He and the guy were gonna build a brick oven outside and we can have brick oven pizza! I was like ok i'll believe it when i see it. I don't think he has really thought this through. I don't know how to build a brick oven, but i'm sure it takes more than just bricks and mortar.... Then he starts talking about how they are thinking of getting a "family car" I'm like they already have a car, by the way the woman doesn't have a drivers license, but he says something about getting a car together and it being a diesel car and he can use it to come see me....I'm like whoa there buddy not a good i dea to go in on a car together with these people! It gets better! Then he's talking about how they are going to till up half the yard and make it a real working farm and by next spring....Thats where i cut him off and said now you're going to be here through next spring??? Are you thinking about me at all? HELLO!!! I am not going to continue to drive all the way up that fucking mountain to see you every weekend and stay in that nasty house with all those people! So you see he needs me to keep him grounded and out of "dreamland" If he's just going to think of what sounds good for him and not think about how its going to make me feel or how it would affect me then we will have a major problem!

Always Hungry

Why am I always hungry!?! I had a bowl of Peaches and cream oatmeal for breakfast and about an hour later a fiber one brownie. Isn't fiber supposed to help you feel fuller so you don't feel hungry? So you don't eat again until lunch time?! Well apparently it doesn't work for me! No, I need to eat Special K
multi-grain crackers and buffalo chicken salad from Harris Teeter only about an hour after i had the brownie and a second cup of coffee! What is going on? Oh shit i forgot to take my birth control pill this morning!! Ugh i really need to figure out a better system to help me remember that!

Unexpected Fear

We had an Earthquake yesterday which is rare for us East coasters. I was at work when i started feeling this vibration and my first thought was that it was a big truck or it was because of the construction going on across the street. When everything started shaking including the entire building i realized "this is an earth quake!" I quickly got under my desk and messaged my boyfriend about it. I was afraid the ceiling was gonna cave in. It felt like it lasted forever which was more like 30 seconds or less. The earthquake registered a 5.9 on the scale. It was the biggest earthquake on the east coast in over a decade.

Unexpected love

If you asked me a year ago if i had a boyfriend i would have said no. If you were to ask me what i was looking for in a guy i would have said a christian man who ha a good paying steady job, who can make me laugh, likes to cuddle and watch movies together. Someone who is willing to wait until we're maried to have sex. Someone sweet and caring and ambitious. Someone who likes to travel, someone whose past relationships are just that, in the past. About 8 months ago something unexpected happened. Someone i knew from 10 years ago asked me on a date and i said yes of course. We went to dinner at a nice restaurant where they messed up our orders, but we didn't care. We got on like we've been friends for years, which we kind of have been just lost touch and went our seperate ways in life. He got married at 21 and seperated a few years later. I stayed single, finished high school, stayed around family, got a job and still live at home with my parents.  He was a sign language interpreter, had his own apartment in the downtown area of a historical city, He didn't have a car, but he lived 2 blocks from the marc station which he used to get to work. He lives kinda far so we only get to see each other on the weekends. He's sweet and caring and loving. He's affectionate and I fell hard and fast. We made out on the first date and had sex by the fourth. He loves to cuddle and watch movies, his job paid very well. However there are things about him that i never expected i would ever "deal with" when it came to having a relationship with someone. He never divorced his "x-wife" after they seperated over 5 years ago. His apartment ended up having some plumbing problems and his landlord was neglectful and cheap in trying to get it fixed, so he had to move out and fast. Now he is living 30 min. farther away with a 40 year old man his mid life crisis 24 yr old girlfriend, his 18yr old son, and her 3 kids form 3 different fathers. Since he interpreted for the schools, summer came and he had no income anymore....He never tried to get a part time job temporarily, beacause he would have to work weekends and would never see me. I never saw myself having a broke-ass boyfriend without a car. Why do i put up with it all? Because he's the only guy to ever ask me out. He loves me. He never asks me for anything. He cares about me. I trust him, and all the wonderful things i mentioned about him earlier are why I drive an hour and a half to see him every Saturday. I know people think i'm crazy or stupid, but theres just this hope inside me thta things have to get better with his career and with the living situation. He will get his divorce and then we can move forward with our relationship without any obstacles in the way.